Blogging is an interesting form of writing; it is both hugely intimate yet it can be easily manipulated. The blogs I read almost daily open up the lives of the writers in a way that previously would have gone fairly unnoticed. I feel like I know them, their children, their routine. I convince myself that we'd be best friends if we met. I marvel at their gorgeous homes, children and menus. But I've also learnt something from those bloggers I most admire: honesty.
I'm aiming for this to be a lifestyle blog. A blog about the things I'm enjoying most at any given moment - things I've watched, visited, baked, bought... But alongside the more fun and frivolous posts, I feel that it's important to be real.
And so, taking a cue from the honesty that some of my favourite bloggers have shown, (bloggers not afraid to admit that their lives are less than perfect), this is my current reality.
It's been a few weeks of contrasts. Not in order, here are some unforgettable moments:
* I turned 30, and enjoyed the most delightful afternoon tea and party with my incredible friends and family.
* I found out I was pregnant.
* I won tickets to the preview of Tent London (part of the London Design Festival). It was a brilliant evening that I felt privileged to attend - blog to follow!
* I started my new job - I must officially be a writer now as it is in my job title...
* My pregnancy was confirmed to be ectopic (when the egg fertilises and hangs around outside of the womb) This is now my third ectopic pregnancy in as many years.
* I worked my way from one side of London to the other taking in as much of the London Design Festival as possible. Highlights today included the Imprint exhibition, Design Junction, SORT at Fortnum and Mason, the Smug cafe and the collaboration between Thornback and Peel and Winter's Moon (LONG blog post to follow).
* Not a day has gone by since I found out my pregnancy was ectopic that I have wondered if this is all a joke.
* Not a day has gone by that I didn't feel ridiculously blessed, nonetheless.
So, as you can see it's been quite the busy September.
Why do I tell you all this? First, it's honestly not to elicit sympathetic faces and comments. But rather, I feel that the whole story should be shared. This is my current reality. It is one made up of contrasts and all of these deserve a mention. My life isn't just about pretty things and adventures. It would be super easy just to carry on as normal, glossing over the heavy stuff, but it just wouldn't feel right. So this is me, now. Slightly heavy-hearted at our loss, but carrying on with life, praising God, and remaining hopeful for the future. And loving all that London has to offer in the meantime...
(Photo: Ruth Garner)